I wish I could live in a fantasy world.

Sometimes, I pretend.

‘But it’s no use now,’ thought poor Alice, ‘to pretend to be two people!’

Or to pretend to live in a different world. All the same, I still try. I listen to tips about pick-up artistry, learn names, introduce myself, and wear my best shirt and pin-striped pants.

But since that doesn’t go so well, I watch TV (new this season: Bionic Woman, The Big Bang Theory) and read books. I’ve developed an affinity for 1970s era fiction including scifi and horror: The Odessa File, Carrie, The Sword of Shannara, Ringworld.

I read all of Carrie on Sunday. I love devouring books. I enjoyed it despite the immense amounts of violence, the religious fervor and fanaticism of various characters, violence, and rawness. The movie is in my queue.

I need to go to sleep.

Categories: Books, Life
Tags: TV

Paul McCartney on eMusic? Weird. Dropkick Murphy’s on eMusic? Expected.

A guy at work yesterday gave me tickets to a Sum 41 concert. I got home and realized the concert had just ended and he was wrong about what day the show was on. So much for that idea.

Today I’m chilling out. I canceled my World of Warcraft account and am gonna demo another MMORPG instead. The good news is I can always go back to WoW and get my characters back. I just haven’t been playing lately because it got boring and my friends were never on at the same time I was.

My big goals for the day are buying a couple light bulbs and laundry detergent. Thrilling, neh?

I’ve been watching a lot of Deadliest Catch lately. There’s no way I’m ever getting on a fishing/crabbing boat. I would be a terrible greenhorn. It’s a lot of fun to watch though. Aside from that, my summer shows are going to consist of Mythbusters and So You Think You Can Dance. One of these things is not like the other ones… so I wish I could break dance.

Work’s been going okay. My April performance sucked and I got talked to about it, but the initial numbers for May look good and now my boss is asking me how I’d feel about becoming a coach somewhere down the line.

“If I don’t move to Japan first, sure.” See, it’s my freshest dream. I’ve gotta have somewhere new to go. Yesterday for a few moments I thought to myself, “wow, I almost like my job today.” But it’s the urge I have to constantly seek out new worlds. My brother Isaac is the same. Either Marines or the coast for him. Jesse’s a bit different, but he wants to move to either Vegas or San Diego. One [whatever I am], one military wannabe, and one rockstar wannabe. I guess [whatever I am] is some sort of wannabe just looking for my own place in the world, too.

And if I don’t get there, who cares? As long as I don’t stop moving, I’m okay with whatever comes my way.

Categories: Life
Tags: eMusic, TV, World of Warcraft

Who knew watching football and eating steak could be so tiring? After the game wound down, I spent the remainder of the evening watching Stargate SG-1 and 24 episodes then turned to my first graphic-novel purchase Watchmen for a bit of reading. Suffice it to say, Watchmen is an amazing read and one of the best novels I’ve ever held between my hands.

The overall theme for today, however, had nothing to do with church, football, Prince, steak, science-fiction shows, or superhero novels other than the stage they provided for the pre-action in my mind.

The big question for today, if not the last week, is “What do I want to do?” and “How do I get there?”

At the rashest moments, I consider leaving everything, going to the airport with my passport and credit card, buying an open-ended ticket to another country, and beginning life anew. Then I decide I’d rather not leave my CDs behind and I’d really like to keep the Brasil and Portugal t-shirts I purchased at a discount from Wal-Mart in Colorado the week after World Cup 2006 ended with Italian victory.

Plus if I flew to Brazil, the Brasil t-shirt would help me seem more like a native. Now if only I could solve the pesky problem of knowing less than five words of Portuguese it could totally happen.

At the present rash moment, I’m considering popping Love Actually in my computer’s DVD drive and watching it for the second time since the last time thirty-five days ago. And with that, my dear friends, I must bid you good evening.

Categories: Life
Tags: TV

I put a new address on the same old loneliness, but I’m alright with that. I’m not expecting to grow old and die here, but it’s not a bad place to pass the time.

Obviously, the biggest improvement to the apartment scenery today is the appearance of cable TV and internet. The weather also worked to our benefit. The cable guy set it up to be regular cable instead of basic and because it’s about negative two degrees (Fahrenheit) he didn’t want to go back outside to switch it. So we get about forty channels extra for free. Score.

I ended up getting all of my stuff moved in here by Saturday morning with the help of my parents. It’s taken several days, but now I’ve got almost everything unpacked and in its new-proper position. All that’s left to put in place is everything on the bookshelf and a few miscellaneous things I need to find a place for. I may utilize our porch storage space to hide away a few unsightly boxes.

I’m living on the floor again though. I haven’t gone out and bought a bed yet for purely financial reasons, and I talked my parents into loaning me one of their twin beds from the Dungeon. Nothing holding it up though. I did this in college for a while, and I stopped when it got too cold. Fortunately, it’s not as drafty here as it was in my dorm room. And I’m only on the second floor.

I wrote some more on my story yesterday. It’s starting to be a bit more difficult deciding where to take it next and I wonder what it will develop into, but I’m enjoying it. Thanks for the feedback I got from those of you who sent some (aka Tyler).

Anyway, I should probably go… uh… surf the net some more. I need to convince my body to sleep before work tonight, too. And Luebbe is getting here at 5PM, so…. later.

Categories: Life
Tags: family, internet, Luebbe, TV

I can almost imagine a bird flying towards you, Mr. Luebbe. * ahem *

In any case, I haven’t even picked up my book today. However, I read several chapters yesterday and watched a couple hours of TV. TV is not a habbit I’m glad to have begun refrequenting after avoiding it for most of college other than vacations to home. I do enjoy Seinfeld, Friends, and Law & Order (all three varieties), though. Perhaps I should not. Whatever.

I did begin working more on one of my papers today. I checked out about six books from the library regarding Biblical arguments for and against slavery. Interesting stuff, but I haven’t found any single argument I entirely agree with. I’m hoping to find more good stuff in the books I haven’t gotten to look through yet. I have a feeling though that it boils down to what it does so often: people using the Bible to support their own beliefs even if they have to misconstrue it and yank it out of context to do so. How else could you advocate such a base thing as American slavery? Slavery isn’t outright condemned in the Bible, but supporting such a modern system ignores so many of Jesus’ teachings regarding treatment of other people.

It appears I haven’t posted anything in the last five days. A quick catchup may be in order.

Friday was Senior Nav Nite meaning that any senior who graduated in December, or will this upcoming May or August goes up front and gets to hear what people think about them. I found it encouraging to hear many of the things people said and knowing that I’ve got friends here who care about me and who see God working in my life despite all the sin.

Yo, Steve! Thanks for giving props to this site. It’d give you a hug if it could, but you’ll have to settle for returned props, a’ight? You da man!

Saturday myself and others went up to 4L’s house and chilled for a long, long time. Myself and Jesse didn’t drive back to Lincoln till 4AM. Needless to say, I was tired on Sunday. I made it to church anyway though.

I have to turn in my papers for Globalization on Thursday. I need to write ten more pages for that class and polish up the other twenty I’ve written. On Friday my 15 page paper on Christianity and Slavery is due. Needless to say, I can’t wait to make it through Friday and I hope I get everything done alright.

Oh, and some good news. I only have five finals! One got cancelled — my professor is unprepared or something of the sort. I’m not sure what he’s grading us on, but I think he’ll have to go easy ’cause he hasn’t given us many assignments. I’d complain, but I figure a woman like Cora must’ve already talked to him and told him why it’s not fair and how he can best make it up to the class. Unfair assumption? Perhaps. If he’s not clear on Thursday though with his plans, I will “confront” him.

So, the five finals for next week: two Wednesday, two Thursday, one Friday. Then I move out on Saturday for the last time ever! It’s almost sad being nearly done with my room in Pound. Three years I’ve lived there now. But no more!

FOR SALE: One wood-framed couch with brown cushions. *$10* Willing to negotiate. I’ve got other goods for sale, but they’ve already got buyers or potential buyers.

Gone so soon… what will you do without me? Oh, well, I suppose I’ll still be _here_ if not in Lincoln.

Categories: Friends, Life
Tags: 4L, college, Luebbe, Navigators, slavery, TV