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Erundur Anwamehtar on May 17th, 2009, at 10:49pm
I am not a patient man. I dislike being stuck in traffic. I don’t like waiting in line at the grocery store. When walking somewhere, I look for the quickest route.
Impatience hurts. The anger burns a whole through me. My agitation causes me to make suboptimal decisions which impact other people.
When it comes to questions of the heart — matters of love, patience becomes an even more difficult proposition.
Am I deceiving myself — are the emotions and the passion real? Or does my impatience perhaps trick me into wanting and believing in something that’s not there?
Self-deception is powerful and dangerous. I find myself struggling to make good decisions when I let myself get carried away and enflamed by emotions. How do I get back on track?
This runaway train will run over me.
Categories: Life
Tags: heart, love, passion
Posted by
Erundur Anwamehtar on May 9th, 2009, at 12:46am
860 days sober. 2 days dry. I’ve been reset.
Categories: Life
Tags: beverages
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Erundur Anwamehtar on May 1st, 2009, at 11:29pm
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Erundur Anwamehtar on April 26th, 2009, at 4:08pm
Albums I’m listening to today:
• Coldplay – Viva la Vida
• Conor Oberst – self-titled
• Astronautalis – Pomegranate
I highly recommend all three. Coldplay is melodic and soothing, Conor Oberst is angsty indie/alt-country passion, and Astronautalis has awesome beats and lyrical flow.
I’ve been practicing my guitar a lot lately. Songs I can (almost) play:
• Brandon Heath – Give Me Your Eyes
• The Proclaimers – 500 Miles
• Wreckless Eric – Whole Wide World
I caught onto Brandon Heath recently via Carolina who showed it to me on YouTube. The Proclaimers is an old favorite of mine I remember hearing and enjoying in sixth grade and subsequently hearing it played (an edited version) during Young Life in high school. “Whole Wide World” I first heard in the movie “Stranger Than Fiction” which is the first song Harold Crick learns to play on his guitar.
The next song I’d like to learn is Flight of the Conchords – The Humans are Dead. Unfortunately, I’m not sure this will be possible, as the humans will all be dead. (Plus, it takes two people to do it any kind of justice.) Watch below via YouTube:
Categories: Life, Music
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Erundur Anwamehtar on April 18th, 2009, at 4:01pm
On January 3rd, 2009, I realized I hadn’t shaved yet this year and opted to continue the trend. It lasted until today.
My reasons for growing the beard in the first place included:
– look/feel older
– the experience of having a beard in my mid-twenties
– looking similar to old photos of my dad when he had a beard in the early 1980s
– seeing what it felt like to be Samson (shaggy!)
While I enjoyed having a beard for all of these reasons, I became hard-pressed by two primary reasons to make a change:
1. Summer comes soon. Long hair/beard in summer = hot, sweaty, yuck.
2. A woman asked me to cut it because she wanted to see what I looked like without a beard.
Results: “You look younger,” “you look like a different person,” “you look so much better,” and “you look great.” I will not complain about these responses. Photographic evidence below.
The Before Photo (upon awakening this morning)
The After Photo (upon shave and a haircut this afternoon)
Categories: Life
