My Brain Hurts

My brain hurts, but at least it’s not subdural hematoma. I’m either watching too many medical TV shows or just reading too much medical information in general. And no, that’s not why my brain hurts, it’s just why I know the term.

Moving in has gone well. I should probably finish unpacking today, but I got burnt out last weekend and don’t want to do anything with any more boxes. But I will get to it. I also plan on posting a few pictures. I will get to it.

I saw “Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, & The Wardrobe” yesterday with mis padres. If you like Narnia at all, you’ll probably love the movie. Plotwise, all the main parts stay; however, in typical book-to-movie fashion they change a few parts to make it fit the time constraints. The cinematography was beautiful, the music fit, the talking animals were awesome. It made me feel like a kid again back when I first read it.

I had a hard time realizing how much older I am than any of the four main characters – Peter, Susan, Edmund, and Lucy. When I first read the book or saw the older movie adaptations, I would’ve been the age of Lucy or Edmund. Now I’m gonna be twenty-four in about two months and starting to feel somewhat old. Sure, from the perspective of a fifty-year-old, twenty-four seems like nothing. From my perspective, twenty-four seems significant.

Fortunately or not, I’m still just a young, single guy able to go out, have fun, and do whatever. As much as I enjoy the freedom of still being single, I think I’d like some of the things a relationship and marriage brings to life. My closest friends in Colorado are now either married or engaged. In another year, I’ll be one of the few single guys left.

I feel like Ted from “How I Met Your Mother.” I love the show — he’s a 27-year-old single guy looking for a wife. That and it’s just damn funny. Granted, I probably wouldn’t do half the stuff that happens on that show, but anyway. I do overthink and booze does help cut back on the thinking… but who wants to be any kind of drunk?

Quite a few transients seem to be okay with being drunks. Can’t cope with the world? Drink Listerine! Yay! 40% alcohol by volume and minty fresh breath, the hobo’s dream concoction!

It’d be more funny if it wasn’t true.

Musically, I haven’t bought any CDs for a couple months ’cause of newly-acquired budget constraints (a.k.a. apartment), but the bands I’d recommend checking out right now would be the female-singer hard-rocking styles of Fireflight, the punk/emo stylings of Matchbook Romance, and there’s always the Featured Downloads to kill some time.

In other music news, Motion City Soundtrack‘s headlining tour will be in Denver on February 21, 2006. If anyone wants to go, I definitely hope to be there.

Motion City Soundtrack – My Favorite Accident:

You said we were an accident
With accidents you’ll never know what could have been
So we were an accident
You’ll always be my favorite one

I Put a New Address on the Same Old Loneliness

I put a new address on the same old loneliness, but I’m alright with that. I’m not expecting to grow old and die here, but it’s not a bad place to pass the time.

Obviously, the biggest improvement to the apartment scenery today is the appearance of cable TV and internet. The weather also worked to our benefit. The cable guy set it up to be regular cable instead of basic and because it’s about negative two degrees (Fahrenheit) he didn’t want to go back outside to switch it. So we get about forty channels extra for free. Score.

I ended up getting all of my stuff moved in here by Saturday morning with the help of my parents. It’s taken several days, but now I’ve got almost everything unpacked and in its new-proper position. All that’s left to put in place is everything on the bookshelf and a few miscellaneous things I need to find a place for. I may utilize our porch storage space to hide away a few unsightly boxes.

I’m living on the floor again though. I haven’t gone out and bought a bed yet for purely financial reasons, and I talked my parents into loaning me one of their twin beds from the Dungeon. Nothing holding it up though. I did this in college for a while, and I stopped when it got too cold. Fortunately, it’s not as drafty here as it was in my dorm room. And I’m only on the second floor.

I wrote some more on my story yesterday. It’s starting to be a bit more difficult deciding where to take it next and I wonder what it will develop into, but I’m enjoying it. Thanks for the feedback I got from those of you who sent some (aka Tyler).

Anyway, I should probably go… uh… surf the net some more. I need to convince my body to sleep before work tonight, too. And Luebbe is getting here at 5PM, so…. later.


I won’t be posting much for the next few days (not that you’ll notice) because I’m in the process of moving and we don’t have internet set up at the apartment yet. The computer will be disassembled right about… now.


I’ve noticed I don’t own any albums from nearly 20% of the bands in my top 50 artists list*. The reason these artists rank so highly is I enjoy a number of their songs I’ve acquired for free from their PureVolume sites, DownloadPunk free samples, from band websites, or from other various locations during about six years of scrounging the web for free and legal music.

I’ve also purchased songs from some of the bands on iTunes. The main reason I haven’t bought any of the below-mentioned albums is a lack of money or holding out for Christmas gifts (hint to my family who reads this site). Please read on for a list of the bands, the albums I’ve been missing out on, and places you can find some of their songs for free.

Artist: Blink-182
Album I’d Like: Greatest Hits
Current Songs: I’ve purchased and acquired a number of songs from “Enema of the State” and their 2003 self-titled release. I don’t want to go back in time and get their old albums since they’re essentially expired, so I’ll settle for the Greatest Hits. The members have gone on to other bands: Angels & Airwaves (2006 release), Plus 44, and The Transplants.

Artist: underOATH
Album I’d Like: They’re Only Chasing Safety (Special Edition)
Current Songs: Various acquired and I purchased “Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape” after reading of its inclusion on X 2005.

Artist: Reggie and the Full Effect
Album I’d Like: Songs Not to Get Married To
Current Songs: I got hooked on “Get Well Soon” (PunkRockVids: Video) when I downloaded the music video. It features Nessie, the Loch Ness Monster, having a terrible time after his divorce. It’s an amazingly hypnotic song with a depressing vibe. I’ve now also bought the song “Happy V-Day” for inclusion on my playlist titled “It Hurts” (full of somewhat sad music for sad times especially when it comes to relationship woes).

Artist: Panic! At the Disco
Album I’d Like: A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out
Current Songs: The one and only reason they’re on the list is ’cause I got hooked on “The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is the Press Coverage.” I like the title, I like the beat, and I like the pop tastiness. The song is even better live ’cause it contains a lot more raw energy.

Artist: Armor for Sleep
Album I’d Like: “What to Do When You are Dead”
Current Songs: Various acquired plus “All Warm” purchased via iTunes. I enjoy the music style a lot.

Artist: Hawthorne Heights
Album I’d Like: The Silence in Black & White
Current Songs: Various acquired. I love the music of “Ohio is for Lovers” and the acoustic versions of a couple of other songs are nice, too. “Ohio” is what it’s all about.

Artist: Sum 41
Album I’d Like: Chuck
Current Songs: I bought Pieces, Fat Lip, and In Too Deep from iTunes. Pieces is on my “It Hurts” playlist. I heard “Fat Lip” a ton at the end of high school. “In Too Deep” is just a catchy song.

Artist: The Starting Line
Album I’d Like: Say It Like You Mean It
Current Songs: I’ve got a bunch of songs from PureVolume and I have many leftover from early this decade when hadn’t yet been destroyed by soulless corporate greed. I mostly like their older material and I listened to songs from the above album many, many times during college.

Artist: Amber Pacific
Album I’d Like: The Possibility and the Promise
Current Songs: “Gone So Young,” “Thoughts Before Me,” and “Always You” have gotten a lot of play. I acquired from DownloadPunk and PureVolume.

*It must be noted I’ve only been heavily using since early 2005 so there’s many, many other artists who could be on this list but aren’t.

Run Free, Little Man

On Thursday, I’ll be taking a running leap from the building I call “my old home” and landing in the vicinity of what I’ll call “my new semi-permanent dwelling.” I still need a good name for it, but I’ll have more time for that once I actually see where I’ll be living. Sure, I’ve seen an apartment like it, but I haven’t seen my actual apartment yet. It’ll also be hard to come up with a better moniker than my current home in “The Dungeon of Despair.”

I’m not even half-done packing and I own about three times as much stuff as I really want to have. If I ever decide to move half way around the world, I’ll be able to unload most of it at a Good Will, but it still weird me out a bit to own things. Earthly possessions and whatnot. I’m more attached to my possessions than I should be, and now I’m getting more of them out of “necessity.” Some men can get through life with a heavy coat, a bottle of Listerine, and whatever scraps of food are given to them. I, however, need a TV, microwave, vacuum, blender, coffee maker, crockpot, dishes, bed, computer, and much more.

Who wants to trade lives with a homeless vagabond? I’m curious, sometimes, but I couldn’t do it for long. I’m too attached. Who knows what’ll happen in life though? War could tear apart the homeland before we’re gone. Anything could happen. Let’s hope it doesn’t, but it’s really just one more thing to be attached to.

“‘Cause I’m in too deep, and I’m trying to keep up above in my head instead of going under.” – Sum 41