I am tired. Probably has something to do with reading a lot and staying up really late despite having nothing to do with homework. I’ll be sleeping soon though at this rate. Not as much caffeine today as other days.
It’s all my fault, too, isn’t it? Not just being tired, but my whole life lately. Why am I currently failing one class and getting mediocre grades in all the rest? Why am I disappointed with myself? Why do I stay behind the door instead of venturing out more. I am trapped in my room and the only thing holding me there is myself.
Sigh. Bitter rants abound here, sometimes, don’t they? Not the cheerful wit of other times.
This weekend worked out rather oddly, though. Actually, this whole week did. I went to no Nav functions but nobody seemed to notice because I either had legitimate excuses (15 page paper to write) or misperceptions (I didn’t go to Kansas, but some probably assumed my absence here meant I did and the rest assumed me not being there meant I didn’t) to cover it up. Then this morning, of course, Daylight Savings served as a great cover up. I really did forget, but I didn’t figure that out till 4PM CDT.
Chilifest occurred today. It went alright. Got some chili, got some cinnamon rolls, drank some water, listened to an awful band, then left. Next time you want to start feel worse about yourself than you already do, that’s the band to hire. Then again, I think a majority of metal-ish bands have that affect. Their lyrics sucked.
I got my homework done for Japanese class tomorrow. Being caught up is good, and I need to stay that way to pull my grade up from the “D” I’m sitting at.
*I MUST NOT FAIL!!!!!*
And now, I will excuse myself. Good night.