I feel as if I comment less and less frequently about the real occurrences of my life on here. Why? I’m not entirely sure. Often, I post interesting things I find online. I like doing that. I enjoy it when people enjoy the things I’ve found. However, there’s a greater purpose to this blog than those things. What is it?
Blabbing about things I do? Sure, sometimes. “I saw Matrix Revolutions today.” Yay. Fine and good. What does that tell you ? It tells you I saw a movie, maybe even why I saw it, and what I think of it.
What’s really going on though? Yes, real things happen to me. Notice: I am a person. I am alive. I do more than blog.
I wish I could convey here all the things in my life I value. I wish I could show you each cubic inch of the terrain: the mountain-top views of the world, the rivlets cut into the surface by wounds and worries, and those moments where I’m side-swiped by elephant-sized frustrations. I think part of why I haven’t been posting as much lately is because I don’t feel adequate to convey these things. (But obviously, in such a public setting as a blog, I won’t say _everything_ that’s going on in my life.)
Something I’m thinking about. *End Rant.*
One of the biggest things I’m being hit by lately is the future. Questions such as “When will I graduate?” “What will I do when I graduate?” No answers, just questions so far. Last night I decided I’d graduate in the summer, but then I found out it doesn’t work out perfectly. The class I want isn’t offered in the first five week summer session. It’s offered in two sections in two classrooms in the same building at the same time in the second five week session. Go figure. Maybe it’s a typo. Whatever. In any case, “there goes that plan.” I think I’ll try to survive the 18 credit gauntlet.
Then what? Who knows. I’ve felt rather calloused for the last few days and without proper perspective to make any decisions in that direction.
Jeremiah 29:11 – “I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD. Plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
It’s a matter of trust. Some changes will be happening this week. A new offensive is beginning. I’ll be getting a phone call every morning at 9AM to wake me up, give me a verse, and start my day off right. Tomorrow is the first day.
People say selling out is bad. I say that’s true, but only in general. If you’re selling out to pop culture, you’re abandoning the fanbase that established you. If you’re selling out to your job (workaholic), you’re abandoning the other people (if any) in your life.
If you’re selling out to God, you’re not missing out on anything.
Philippians 4:19 – “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
Romans 8:32 – “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”