Lost myself again,
didn’t care,
I was missin’,
said goodbye to friends,
and drove away.
I just don’t belong in a town,
where no one listens,
even if I’m wrong,
I’ll find a way.
I am not a patient man. I dislike being stuck in traffic. I don’t like waiting in line at the grocery store. When walking somewhere, I look for the quickest route.
Impatience hurts. The anger burns a whole through me. My agitation causes me to make suboptimal decisions which impact other people.
When it comes to questions of the heart — matters of love, patience becomes an even more difficult proposition.
Am I deceiving myself — are the emotions and the passion real? Or does my impatience perhaps trick me into wanting and believing in something that’s not there?
Self-deception is powerful and dangerous. I find myself struggling to make good decisions when I let myself get carried away and enflamed by emotions. How do I get back on track?
This runaway train will run over me.
860 days sober. 2 days dry. I’ve been reset.
Albums I’m listening to today:
• Coldplay – Viva la Vida
• Conor Oberst – self-titled
• Astronautalis – Pomegranate
I highly recommend all three. Coldplay is melodic and soothing, Conor Oberst is angsty indie/alt-country passion, and Astronautalis has awesome beats and lyrical flow.
I’ve been practicing my guitar a lot lately. Songs I can (almost) play:
• Brandon Heath – Give Me Your Eyes
• The Proclaimers – 500 Miles
• Wreckless Eric – Whole Wide World
I caught onto Brandon Heath recently via Carolina who showed it to me on YouTube. The Proclaimers is an old favorite of mine I remember hearing and enjoying in sixth grade and subsequently hearing it played (an edited version) during Young Life in high school. “Whole Wide World” I first heard in the movie “Stranger Than Fiction” which is the first song Harold Crick learns to play on his guitar.
The next song I’d like to learn is Flight of the Conchords – The Humans are Dead. Unfortunately, I’m not sure this will be possible, as the humans will all be dead. (Plus, it takes two people to do it any kind of justice.) Watch below via YouTube:
